Love Them When They Don't

I really struggled with this one. I thought maybe it wasn't entertaining enough for the second post or maybe it was too much. But someone told me once "If you aren't doing it with your whole heart then you shouldn't be doing it". This has been heavy on my mind and heart lately.. and I just want to share it with someone who wants to listen. Thank you for reading and thank you for your support!



"...Everything is a risk. Everything.. The only thing you can choose is what you're risking it for."

RIP Herschel. I will miss your words of wisdom.

"Sure.. you could not pursue the one thing that has made you happier than you have ever been. You could. You could back away - back down - give up.. all because yes, it IS a risk. But you won't. You won't because you are no longer a quitter...remember? You will pursue this feeling and you will run after it - full speed ahead. You may fall - but you may not." - Author: to not be named.

The fact of the matter is that  the people I have trusted most to never leave - left. And I am fine now. Have YOU ever been so in love? Have YOU ever just wanted to touch someone? Just FEEL them next to you? Have you ever just wanted to be held? Have you ever been willing to throw everything away for ONE person (plus two little ones).. my answer is no. I haven't. So I think that is how I know that this is different. I know that IF it does work out.. this is it. I know this is different. 

We're going to call this guy ManCandy. He's the one I am all mushy about. <3

So let the people that promised they always would - let them don't when they don't want to. Let the "I told you so's" and the "This is what I was afraid of's" fly. Let them come at you like rain in April.. and don't be bothered. 

Why? 

Because the SAME person that told me "It's your life - own it." Left me do just that. So this IS my life. I DO own it. And even though you have a lot going on.... you are still a priority to me. 

"Kill them with kindness sweetie, cause despite all the unresolved childhood issues and despite all the adulthood terrors and despite all the horrible odds you were born into.. you are STILL full of HOPE and GRACE and LOVE and you STILL have FAITH in the world and you STILL laugh at the little things and you STILL find beauty in negative places. You STILL have the innocence of a child when it comes to life and how horrible it can be. Don't lose that.. don't ever lose that." (A quote from someone that means the world to me, It was in regards to this very situation.)

So kill all the doubters and haters and negative nancys... Kill them and smile. And love them when they love you again. And STILL.. love them when they don't. Because they do need you and they will need you and you will always be there.

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Some people call that state of mind weak or not knowing when to walk away. I call it love...I love the friend and I love the ManCandy. Love makes you do some CRAZY things - cliche saying number 1....But it DOES. You do things you thought you never would all because you love someone. I am the kind of person that wants to have an explanation for EVERYTHING. So one day I googled "Scientific explanation behind love".. I read through a bunch of crap and came up with the explanation of either A-) He is SUPER attracted to my pheromones that my super sexy body puts out without me knowing OR B-) It's magic. I am going with option B. It's just magic. I can't explain it - and I don't know why - and I don't know how - and I couldn't tell you WHEN.. but it is what it just is. It's just magic. And it's a magic that I have never felt. It's a magic that is SO deep in my heart that I couldn't get it out if I tried. No amount of pepto could cure this heart burn - HA. 

To conclude this extremely long gushing of feelings and heart ache and confusion.. let me leave you with this.

1.) You have the power to control the outcome of a situation just by how you respond to it. I wish I would have responded differently to that friend.. but I didn't. And this is where I am.

2.) Emily-Faith Haney is in LOVE and she is SCARED TO DEATH.. but she is going full speed ahead.. cause she isn't a quitter anymore.

3.) Emily-Faith has a best friend that is going to read this and may get very upset.. but she wants her best friend to know that she loves her. 

If I am wrong and if this time is no different... expect a blog post in 1-4 years that wreaks of heartache and bud light.. but that's no where I haven't been. And HERE isn't either.

I wanted to get you on the same love page as me.. and I wanted to let you guys know what I am up against when it comes to this and what this means to me. I promise to make the next one as entertaining and motivating as possible! I love you for even reading this! Let me know what you think!!